Setting down: 14 month Fact Finding Mission

These past few months have been torturous. I have struggled to get out of bed, I have been sick, I have had headaches, I have ignored Sean...yep, depression hit hard.

Is it because I hate the weather here in Chicago, or do I hate the city itself? Or is it because I am a new mommy and my life is dictated by when I have to get home to feed Owen. Or am I just unhapy with my husband and my new life with him and baby?

What ever, I am unhappy in this space of my life. I need a change and I need it yesterday...

BUT I am willing, after talking it over with Sean, to put aside my complete need for change NOW and do work to stay here one more year. 14 months exactly. Good bye Chicago...Hello_____?

_______. That is what the next 14 months or less will be for: to find out where we want to live to be happy together. I love sean and I really want this relationship to work, but there is a time to sit idly by to twiddle your thumbs (retirement), and a time to make your dreams come true (ok that could also be retirement, but it could also be life!)

So what am I looking for?